Hide and Seek...time to hide

Okay, so this past week has been nothing but pure craziness, and I am ready to go into hiding....for good :)



Let me just recap with the last 24 hrs. After going out to eat at Applebee's of course, I take my ring off and get some gloves on to finish up my yard project. I had put 7 bags of mulch down earlier in the day, and just had 3 more to go, and my project would be complete. I was so eager to do so, that I forgot where I put my ring, and with my mind being crazy from the previous days, I could not even picture myself taking it off or where I may have possibly placed it....it was lost.



I was worried that I may have been careless enough to put it in a place where Kylie could get it. So we talk to her about it, and she says that she had it....and takes us all over the place...in her playroom, downstairs, outside...says it was in the garage, in the mulch, in the tree...after the tree comment, we figured she had no idea.



We searched the garage after we put her down, and search the yard with flashlights. Nothing. Paranoid, I sleep in Kylie's playroom, just in case someone were to come by and find it...crazy I know, but this is me when I am freaking out about something.



I have crazy, scary dreams and don't sleep well, wake up for good at 6am and search the garage and yard all over again. Nothing.



Once Kylie is up, I get her dressed and take her to a new place for OT and for a toddler class (more in an upcoming post). I share my ring dilemma, and they say that I can leave after her OT is done, while she is in her toddler class.



Kylie does amazing as I leave, and I got rent a metal detector...yep, a metal detector. Of course it is raining now, so I search the yard with the metal detector in the rain..neighbors must think I am crazy..oh well. Nothing.



I come in the house to scan the dog with the metal detector...you never know, right? As I come in the house I take my shoes off. I see a cup on the end table...a large plastic cup with a lid and a tall straw. I immediately think that I had placed my ring over the straw, and I look and see it there! The cup was on Matt's workbench in the garage, and while we were searching everywhere, he cleaned off his workbench and put the cup in the house.



Lesson learned: Never do yard work again :) And, perhaps not worry about my ring getting dirty, so not taking it off again.


So, onto the next and craziest part of all.


Matt gets a call today, that the server that waited on him over the weekend was being treated for bacterial meningitis. This is something that would definitely alarming to people, but even more so, to someone that has a child whose immune system was once severely compromised from a medication, as a result of a incredibly rare form of epilepsy.


So my ring fiasco, was nothing compared to Matt on the other end of the phone today, fearing that his exposure to this person could affect Kylie...our sweet girl that has been through more than we could have ever imagined.


The smart guy that he is had already called his doctor and Kylie's pediatrician to see what they had to say about it. They did say that symptoms should have presented them self by this point, but to keep an eye on her. They also mentioned that it would be pretty rare for Matt to have carried something like that back to us....but with IS being so rare, we can't take anything like this lightly.


Matt got a call back about 3o minutes after calling me, saying that the health department ruled out bacterial meningittis. So enough time for us to completely freak out, to then say it wasn't that, and that the diagnosis was still unknown.


Later in the evening, Matt saw that Kylie's pediatrician got back with us and left a message saying that if Matt was feeling okay, then there was no need to worry about Kylie. It all just makes me sick to know that something very scary could have happened again. I can't go through anything else right now, none of us can. I just feel that I could really break, so I will be guarding myself a lot for a while.


The hard thing is that it makes me feel like okay, maybe we need to revisit the idea of getting Kylie more of her immunizations. Then I recall the little guy whose blog I found, and his family was preparing his one year seizure free celebration. They were just one week away from the big celebration when he got one a shot at the doctor's office, and within hours he began seizing and still has seizures to this very day.


This is the very shot that we were thinking of allowing Kylie to get, but we can no longer go through with it.


I do not know that I can live with myself knowing that we said yes to the shots, and this very thing happens to Kylie. Oh, they say it is so rare...so is Infantile Spasms. I also do not know what I would do if she gets something that could have been prevented by a shot.


I know this is the obvious to so many, but not so much to some that feel like they need to get their point across...but anyhow, no need for lectures on shots or anything else...right now we need lots of support and love, because we are feeling pretty shaky right now.


So yeah, this is all in the last 24 hrs...actually it was more like 20 hrs, but who's counting. Thanks for following and staying with us :)